My days are colored with my own perspectives on how things are or how they should be in my own world.

Each day I begin withthanks that I have the opportunity to live another day, to touch another heart, spirit, scratch my cats and love my friends and family.

There are days that I feel as if I am struggling against the world, when I feel good or when I am just downright melancholy.

Each day presents a new challenge for me to grow in some way.  Lately I have been facing myself each day with fear and lonliness.  My dearest love and heart is out of the state right now on family emergency.  I have always had a horrid fear of being alone at night especially.  There are valid reasons behind my fear from years and years ago.  Now I am older, wiser tonight I got tired and went to bed at about 2 or 2:30.  I thought that this might be the night that I slept a little better.  It would have been until my phone rang at 4:47

It's over for Gram.  She passed away peacefully this morning and Keith was with her.  I am glad (so glad) that he decided to spend the evening keeping his Aunt Kathy company so that he could be there for Gram.  I think it is so important for the family to spend that time with their loved one as they prepare to pass from this world to the next.  I am left with tears in my eyes and sadness in my heart as I am have been unable to be there for them.  I have had too many things going on at home and work to be able to take off for a week and I can't afford not being paid for time off.  I realize that my subject has morphed to something very different than what I started as.  This is in part because I started this entry yesterday with a different purpose than what it has turned into.

 

I am not sure what the next steps are going to be or when the funeral is going to be or even if I am going to be able to go.  So much is uncertain right no in my own head....I just don't know what to do or think.  I should be in bed but I am not sure I can sleep anymore after being woken up with the news....

They died...i don't have enough clickies.

Maybe share with friends?

i don't want my draggies to die...share with friends please!

So i've decided it's time for me to do a clean up on my FLIST.

There are folks that I don't really read, folks that don't read me or comment, folks I don't connect with.

If you feel you fit into these categories lemme know and I will poof be gone.   if I feel I belong into one of those categories I will poof be gone.

If you end up in this category and really do not want to be, lemme know.

Clean up starts now.

HP Media Center:
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/sys/876380205.html

Alienware Area51:
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/sys/876382025.html

Nitrox Tanks:
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/spo/875376020.html

Plethora of Dive Gear:
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/for/875357020.html
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/for/875357956.html
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/for/875359491.html

Dive Computers:
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/for/875364385.html
http://miami.craigslist.org/pbc/spo/875372776.html

Neither of us Dive anymore so we want to get rid of all this stuff.  Need Gear?  Know someone who needs gear?  Send em our way :)

Thanks!

These are what I consider Coffee Table Books with pictures and art for conversation and such.

Books Available:

Gardens and Graveyards of the Southeastern Seaboard
http://www.amazon.com/Gardens-graveyards-Southeastern-seaboard-photographic/dp/0963848615/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923138&sr=1-1

Olympic National Park
http://www.amazon.com/Olympic-National-Park-Tim-McNulty/dp/0917627016/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923206&sr=1-2

Infanta: Photographs
http://www.amazon.com/Infanta-Photographs-Alexandra-Anderson-Spivy/dp/188348913X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923279&sr=1-1

M.C. Escher: Visions of Symmetry (New Edition) (Hardcover)
http://www.amazon.com/M-C-Escher-Visions-Symmetry-New/dp/0810943085/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923328&sr=1-1

Structures: The Way Things Are Built
http://www.amazon.com/Structures-Way-Things-Are-Built/dp/0020005105/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923369&sr=1-1

Beautiful Death: The Art of the Cemetery
http://www.amazon.com/Beautiful-Death-Cemetery-Penguin-Studio/dp/067086806X/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923496&sr=1-1

Florida's Fabulous Reptiles and Amphibians
http://www.amazon.com/Floridas-Fabulous-Reptiles-Amphibians-Carmichael/dp/0911977112/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204923542&sr=1-1

Dali (the cover is different but the book is the same)
http://www.amazon.com/Dali-Midsize-Robert-Descharnes/dp/3822831816/ref=sr_1_13?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1204924077&sr=1-13

Other items:

Various Eeyore Stuffed Toys
Disco Aisha Neopet (interactive talking toy, needs batteries)
2 strings of tangled christmas lights (I have no patience for these right now)

Under absolutely NO cirucmstances go see the movie Dragon Wars.

No really. I am serious.

Do.Not.See.This.Garbage.

I am so bored right now while we wait for Boca to arrive. the wireless in the reception area bites. my palm tx however rocks.

YAY! I have new mood theme based on the Yahoo! Emoticons. Jenn gave me instructions I could actually understand! :D YAYNESS!